There goes the fear

Let me find a better view of this unpredictable world,

Obstructed by the conditions of all of life's turns.

Being left out of the center feels like too much of a fight,

Seemingly impossible for me to find what could be right.

So I stand pretending, careless of the world that's passing by,

Secretly wishing I could find a sight for sore eyes.

Shouldn't this be a two way street we walk?

Now, I would love to journey with you looking for what we have lost.

But could it be that simple? Truthfully, I think it is.

Complication's only an option we can apply to how we live... so leave it out.

Let's take these steps to feel and better off,

And learn that there's just too much to gain once you get passed what you've lost.

Only time will reveal what's faint and what's clear,

Look up to the stars, breathe within the oceans, 'cause there goes the fear.

NTS:

I did it all throughout high school. I'm pretty damn sure I can do it again. No problem.

And save yourself some $#%$ing dignity while you still have some left to save. You look pathetic from their POV.

To whomever it may concern:

Don't ever let your negative thoughts bring you down. 'Cause sometimes, life will surprise you.

longevitys apart

You and I, we don't talk anymore. You left and we went our separate ways. You didn't give me much time to soak it in. You told me one day in advance you were leaving for good. But so much time has passed now that even the bad memories have become good ones. And despite what the rest of my family says, I know you're not a bad person. You loved me no matter what I did. But it's sad to say that through the years you and I became more like friends than family. I'm thankful though. Because of you, I'm the man I am today.

"Leaving me was probably the best thing you ever taught me."

Maybe one day, we'll kick it again, Dad.

delude

I'm the type to be straight up when something is bothering me. But what if that something was a friend who lied directly to you, and thought that you didn't know the truth? Would it be better to confront them and put the friendship at risk, or keep it to yourself and hope they change their ways? I guess it's all a matter of opinion.

Today, I chose to keep it to myself.

push on

This is the realest shit I've ever wrote, I'll say it with my soul.

We all spend time on things that break too easily, like people.

Friends they come, and they may go,

but from each you'll learn and grow.

Mentality is the game, don't ever lose the grip of your sanity,

because friends will hurt you more than your enemies.

Don't let it bring you down though it's just how that shit works,

put your heart out on the pedestal and pull it back when you get hurt.

Gotta learn from your mistakes, it's what'll make you stronger,

from heartaches to heartbreaks, gotta keep reaching higher.

Don't ever lose your aspect, the things that you prospect the most,

make your dreams reality, and that's when you'll discover the beauty,

of what life could be.

"they say life is what you make it, when really life is what makes you"-RA Scion

define: express/emotion

I look at myself to the man I shaped up to be,

and can't help but remember who I used to be.

Everything I'm going through is like a book: beginning, middle and end.

And time is my worst enemy, and my best friend.

So much shit happened, so much shit has changed,

been through the chapter and flipped the page.

Now, I can't help but realize that all the bad shit is behind me,

and what's important is the future I make/believe.

Gotta maintain that state of mind, pray and be blessed.

You only live once, so live life to the fullest.

Yes

If you've ever seen the movie "Yes man", then you'd know that the concept of the story was to say yes to anything. I've been trying to do the same. Maybe not as extreme as it was portrayed in the movie, but I'm trying my best. A few nights ago, it was all made clear that it was well worth it. A friend asked me to photograph an event he was helping organize, and that was where I met her. It was like a movie. I held the camera to my face to snap photos when she walked into focus. I lowered the camera slowly, staring blankly straight ahead of me to a sight so...breath taking. Beautiful. We had two mutual friends at that party, and thanks to them I was soon introduced to her. We were left alone to talk with one another. Struggling to hear each other from the loud music playing in the background, we were forced to keep distance to a minimum. She told me her dad is in the UN, she lived in Africa for 4 years, came to BC just to study at UBC, and that she was feeling low about a test she didn't do too well on. We talked our personal lives, and moved onto music(my specialty). It wasn't awkward at all. Words flowed from both ends and I immediately felt how interested I was in this girl. Sadly, she was waiting for a date(whom I thought was her boyfriend at first), and when he arrived, I learned something. I didn't care. He was just an obstacle I'd need to overcome. And so at the end of the night, she was standing with the guy when I approached her. I said to her, "Hey, I gotta go now, do you mind if i could get your facebook? It was really nice meeting you." Instead, she asked for my number. She was just full of surprises. Taking my digits in front of her date, I knew there was something more to this. The night ended and all I could think to myself was: If I hadn't said yes to helping photograph the dance, would I have ever met her?

I don't believe in coincidences.
It's gotta be fate.